We are all trying to live well. Be happy. Love. And be loved. ❤️
It’s hard. Meaning different things to us all. 🌎
But what if we understood that it is supposed to be hard? While there is joy & love, there is also pain, loss, turmoil. 😞 Deep in the throes of the novel Untamed, here is a haltingly beautiful excerpt:
“We hurt people, and we are hurt by people. We feel left out, envious, not good enough, sick, and tired. We have unrealized dreams and deep regrets. We are certain that we were meant for more and that we don’t even deserve what we have. We feel ecstatic and then numb. We wish our parents had done better by us. We wish we could do better by our children. We betray and we are betrayed. We lie and we are lied to. We say good-bye to animals, to places, to people we cannot live without. We are so afraid of dying. Also: of living. We have fallen in love and out of love, and people have fallen in love and out of love with us. We wonder if what happened to us that night will mean we can never be touched again without fear. We live with rage bubbling. We are sweaty, bloated, gassy, oily. We love our children, we long for children, we do not want children. We are at war with our bodies, our minds, our souls. We are at war with one another. We wish we’d said all those things while they were still here. They’re still here, and we’re still not saying those things. We know we won’t. We don’t understand ourselves. We don’t understand why we hurt those we love. We want to be forgiven. We cannot forgive. We don’t understand God. We believe. We absolutely do not believe. We are lonely. We want to be left alone. We want to belong. We want to be loved. We want to be loved. We want to be loved.”
In trying to live this so-called best life, when we feel pain & discomfort, we are doing what we set out to do. We are living. None of it is easy. Nor is it supposed to be. No one gets a free pass. 🙅🏻♀️
Embracing that is what allows us to accept the ups, the downs, the good, the bad. Embracing that is how we push forward. Keep going.
Guiding us look out for one another. 💫
For within this jumbled, tangled mess, that magic we find surely is worth it, is it not? 🙏🏽
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